Figured I'd start one of these.. Making money online will definitely be a part of it, but just as well I'll probably write about personal things and my goals in life (WHY I want to make money online). I tend to be wordy and off-topic but I ain't askin' anyone to read this. In fact, I'd really rather no one read this. I just think it's a good idea so here goes..
Backstory:
When I was 14 I was a video game developer. We had just recently moved away from my friends so I had a lot of spare time alone, and would spend hours and hours creating RPG games and other little things for PC and GBA. I even got to use a game I had created one time in a public speaking class, and if I remember right, the AI beat me during the demonstration! Anyway.. I really liked building things like that. And before then, it was tree-houses and motorcycles and go-karts, and before that.. Well I've always just been a creative dude who liked building stuff.
When I was 16 I had saved up $100 and bought myself a guitar. I remember being really fond of playin' the guitar and putting as much in every day as my fingers could take. I got real good real fast, and there was not a doubt in my mind I was going to be one of the best in the world. I just had the desire. Well that was my dream: to play the guitar for a living and be the best I could at it.
When I was 18 I decided to have a faith in God. This didn't end well.. Ha. Well I ended up with the wrong group of people and it completely destroyed me and my life over a period of two years. Well, really, it was so horrifying that I think it'd be appropriate to leave out the details. I guess I'll say I'm a cult victim, a trauma survivor, and am in recovery from the abuse. On second thought, I guess this is important;
I ended up at a point where my identity was taken from me against my will. Later I found out, this is what multiple personality disorder can be about in certain cases. Basically, I was no longer possible to stay the person I had been and survive as the torment had been so great for such a long period of time. It's a natural response to a significant trauma. It's hard to explain. But I'm not the same person I used to be, and that person was just turned into a hopeless maniac.
But it's not like I was just given a new personality at random by the universe or whatever.. I was pretty much a zombie for a while - what I call "The Nothingman", where the abuse had left the old me. A man who "is nothing, has nothing, and seeks only justice before death." SO DRAMATIC!
I'm not a dramatic person but some crazy shit has happened to me.. So a few months into that I still had no direction, and my abusers contacted me on Facebook. I needed to scare them away, I had no idea what to do.. I didn't know any laws or anything. I just knew that these people kill me and I need the relationships to be deader than dead. Well I just said that I wanted everything they did to me to happen to them. Well that made its way to the police and I was soon arrested and charged with 2 felony counts of terrorist threats with intent to commit murder. (funny how doing things to someone is against no law, but saying you want to do those things back after being destroyed is a felony).
That was in October 2009. I was OR'd and decided I needed to really build a new life as a new person on my own because no one would help me (reached out to a pastor who abused my confidence and in the end turned me into the police). Unfortunately, month after month I was dragged back to court, never knowing if I was going to jail for the rest of my life. This felt like, the abusers were still in control of me and my life. Still had the power to kill me even though I was someone else now. Like their arms still reached into my world and were choking the life from it and controlling all that happened to me.
This was tricky because, when I was arrested I was at a point where I had no life and they couldn't take anything from me, so I didn't care. For the week I was in jail, I felt better and more at-peace than I had the last 3 years. Being unable to function as a normal person, it was a welcome relief to not have to do anything myself or worry about anything. For my parents, I decided to re-invest myself and begin to trust in the world again. The thing was, the more I gained, the more I had to lose, and the more painful it was to be waiting on the whole jail thing. It's like, I decided to become a person again so I could get beyond being dangerous and stay out of jail and alive, but I still had the threat of jail so I didn't want to invest myself because then I'd have more to lose. I was really torn but pressed on, doing the things people do. Which was really hard. But I figured that's all I could do.
On January 12th (6th court date) I had court and now I'm 99% sure we've got the felony charges dropped, and all I'm going to get is a hefty fine and a few years probation. I know I could fight it and sue the hell out of the people that did this to me, but it's worth more to me to just forget about it and move on. They're going to destroy themselves and other people their whole lives; I just want to escape and be someone else: someone new, someone with a hope for a future who represents stability and success. I want to be able to have trusting relationships with people again, and wake up one day and be glad to be alive; Be thankful. I want to escape this depression, this darkness, this mindset that says I cannot be successful. I want to make money, and not have to worry about being shot or maimed or just something horrible happening to me. And I was left with that. Every time I do something that works I feel like something completely terrible has to happen because the universe just hates me. But that ain't right and I gotta press through those feelings and keep working, knowing A + B = C and not A + B = ???#$&#$EXPLODE???
It's a serious thing, and for me, to see it so deeply ingrained in me now saddens me. But it goes really deep and I'm not sure when or how or if I'll ever get past this and reprogram my brain until it just doesn't want to go there anymore. I want to meet a goal and see success without having a panic attack because I'm fearing a flesh-eating disease or a horrible car crash or a stray bullet taking me out. And why? Because I made $100 and that's against the rules of the universe? That's dumb. But it's there. And when I fail I want to know it's because C + D = E and not because I am not allowed to be successful and there's nothing I can do about it because it's illogical and impossible to understand. And I'm going to push through as hard as I can to actually be successful so that thing can't say, "Look, everything you do ends in almost immediate failure no matter what you try. There is no hope, you are not allowed to have what you want, so give up. You are not in control and your life will be full of suffering and nothing else so that you may be strong. No matter what, you will fail and suffer." It's fucked up. And I wonder, like, how many have to struggle with this, even mildly.
I setup a movie site two days ago, and just running a small $40 test it turned a profit of $180 with one campaign. I felt like, maybe I was on my way. I was ready to optimize it with tests and scale up to no end! Then I got the Google Slap! All keywords from 10/10 to 5/10! It was easy to be discouraged, but I gotta just move on to something else and not let that get me down. I might work towards resolution or go through the hassle of getting another account but for now I'll leave it be. Gotta get back in the game!!!
So I want to be healthy and successful and be a person who has the capacity to love and be loved. And the plan is to do that through the pursuit of healthy relationships and a career AS A GUITAR PLAYER!
Well, the trouble is, this started when I was 19 and I'm near 23, and all those years spent unable to practice the guitar have taken a toll. "USE IT OR LOSE IT!" I'm a shitty guitar player by my own standards now. But I want to be pro. And in order to afford myself the time to develop my skills and a career plan, I want to have a very hands-off income from the internet.
So here is..
Where I'm At:
-Living in grandparent's basement as I've been in recovery and parent's lost house.
-No steady income.
-Sister stole my car -_-
-Built two websites, have ideas for more.
-Want to own websites that bring in a passive income.
-Have $1700 from previous business that went under due to personal problems and an inability to continue operating it.
I've read a lot recently... I've been working 16-18 hours a day since January 1st. What I think is best for me, is 1) Developing the ideas I have for websites and 2) Buying websites that make a passive income from organic traffic and optimizing them to build up my monthly income.
So I'm going to do a lot this year, and I'm going to cover a lot of different money-making tactics in this thread. And a lot of websites. One by one, I'm going to work at them until they are fully developed. I've always had so many ideas, I can never focus on one and finish anything. Even insofar, making money online has really been teaching me to work hard and stay focused, finishing one task before starting another.
Okay, so let's try to set up some...
Short-Term Goals:
-Promote my website which uses the CPALead reward site script until it makes $10 daily on auto-pilot. Also GET IT RANKED! I'd like to post it, but I'll hold off until it's established to avoid evil-doers lurking. I know I built a super awesome site but I just don't know how to promote it and get it ranked. Or maybe it just takes time. Made $30 the first 2 days from forum posting, then nothing.. doing Youtube and backlinks/articles/bookmarking/promoting bookmarks now. I always end up doing a bunch of work and then learning how I could have done it better. >_< This is a learning experience for me. Well, everything seems to be! =]
-Purchase one hands-off website and optimize it to $10 daily minimum.
-Once I get to $600 monthly MOVE OUT - this change of environment and added freedom and privacy is sure to boost my moral and energy! (one detail is the basement smells like sewage.. which isn't that bad honestly, but the prison had the same weird smell and man, it's like what they say about smells and memory, it just gets me down about the fines I am facing instead of looking towards the future!)
Long-Term Goal:
Make a living doing the thing I've found I can enjoy most: playing the guitar well. Ultimately, I want to use my internet marketer's mind combined with my music skill set to be able to make a comfortable living WITHOUT traveling all around the world and not being able to have close friends or a family someday. I've done that when I was younger and it's exciting, but it's also miserable and dangerous - not to mention it doesn't pay squat 99% of the time. I just want to work from home/locally.
Depending on how well I end up doing, I want to travel to Japan. And I want to buy some land out in Tennessee or somewhere and basically build something like what Michael Jackson had, I think. Or Bam Margera? I want a castle and go-kart tracks and luge hills and a giant foam pit and underground caves/hangout and passage ways and tunnels and a 1500-foot zip line and tree forts and a motorcycle and an on-site venue for bands and just anything I can think of to have FUN! I just want to build a big playground for my friends & I. Yeah, dude. PARTY ON! :thrasher:
Well I'm willing to put the hours in and am lucky enough to have an opportunity to do so so I hope this works... Will be updating daily, then after a while posts are likely to become less often, as these things normally go..
If anyone ends up reading this account and following what the heck I'm up to for some reason, well I hope it helps you somehow with something you're doing. And I ask that you hold me accountable if you end up coming back often!
All right! Time to eat, do a youtube video, get some rest and get up at 4 to start working before the other birds!
Backstory:
When I was 14 I was a video game developer. We had just recently moved away from my friends so I had a lot of spare time alone, and would spend hours and hours creating RPG games and other little things for PC and GBA. I even got to use a game I had created one time in a public speaking class, and if I remember right, the AI beat me during the demonstration! Anyway.. I really liked building things like that. And before then, it was tree-houses and motorcycles and go-karts, and before that.. Well I've always just been a creative dude who liked building stuff.
When I was 16 I had saved up $100 and bought myself a guitar. I remember being really fond of playin' the guitar and putting as much in every day as my fingers could take. I got real good real fast, and there was not a doubt in my mind I was going to be one of the best in the world. I just had the desire. Well that was my dream: to play the guitar for a living and be the best I could at it.
When I was 18 I decided to have a faith in God. This didn't end well.. Ha. Well I ended up with the wrong group of people and it completely destroyed me and my life over a period of two years. Well, really, it was so horrifying that I think it'd be appropriate to leave out the details. I guess I'll say I'm a cult victim, a trauma survivor, and am in recovery from the abuse. On second thought, I guess this is important;
I ended up at a point where my identity was taken from me against my will. Later I found out, this is what multiple personality disorder can be about in certain cases. Basically, I was no longer possible to stay the person I had been and survive as the torment had been so great for such a long period of time. It's a natural response to a significant trauma. It's hard to explain. But I'm not the same person I used to be, and that person was just turned into a hopeless maniac.
But it's not like I was just given a new personality at random by the universe or whatever.. I was pretty much a zombie for a while - what I call "The Nothingman", where the abuse had left the old me. A man who "is nothing, has nothing, and seeks only justice before death." SO DRAMATIC!
I'm not a dramatic person but some crazy shit has happened to me.. So a few months into that I still had no direction, and my abusers contacted me on Facebook. I needed to scare them away, I had no idea what to do.. I didn't know any laws or anything. I just knew that these people kill me and I need the relationships to be deader than dead. Well I just said that I wanted everything they did to me to happen to them. Well that made its way to the police and I was soon arrested and charged with 2 felony counts of terrorist threats with intent to commit murder. (funny how doing things to someone is against no law, but saying you want to do those things back after being destroyed is a felony).That was in October 2009. I was OR'd and decided I needed to really build a new life as a new person on my own because no one would help me (reached out to a pastor who abused my confidence and in the end turned me into the police). Unfortunately, month after month I was dragged back to court, never knowing if I was going to jail for the rest of my life. This felt like, the abusers were still in control of me and my life. Still had the power to kill me even though I was someone else now. Like their arms still reached into my world and were choking the life from it and controlling all that happened to me.
This was tricky because, when I was arrested I was at a point where I had no life and they couldn't take anything from me, so I didn't care. For the week I was in jail, I felt better and more at-peace than I had the last 3 years. Being unable to function as a normal person, it was a welcome relief to not have to do anything myself or worry about anything. For my parents, I decided to re-invest myself and begin to trust in the world again. The thing was, the more I gained, the more I had to lose, and the more painful it was to be waiting on the whole jail thing. It's like, I decided to become a person again so I could get beyond being dangerous and stay out of jail and alive, but I still had the threat of jail so I didn't want to invest myself because then I'd have more to lose. I was really torn but pressed on, doing the things people do. Which was really hard. But I figured that's all I could do.
On January 12th (6th court date) I had court and now I'm 99% sure we've got the felony charges dropped, and all I'm going to get is a hefty fine and a few years probation. I know I could fight it and sue the hell out of the people that did this to me, but it's worth more to me to just forget about it and move on. They're going to destroy themselves and other people their whole lives; I just want to escape and be someone else: someone new, someone with a hope for a future who represents stability and success. I want to be able to have trusting relationships with people again, and wake up one day and be glad to be alive; Be thankful. I want to escape this depression, this darkness, this mindset that says I cannot be successful. I want to make money, and not have to worry about being shot or maimed or just something horrible happening to me. And I was left with that. Every time I do something that works I feel like something completely terrible has to happen because the universe just hates me. But that ain't right and I gotta press through those feelings and keep working, knowing A + B = C and not A + B = ???#$&#$EXPLODE???
It's a serious thing, and for me, to see it so deeply ingrained in me now saddens me. But it goes really deep and I'm not sure when or how or if I'll ever get past this and reprogram my brain until it just doesn't want to go there anymore. I want to meet a goal and see success without having a panic attack because I'm fearing a flesh-eating disease or a horrible car crash or a stray bullet taking me out. And why? Because I made $100 and that's against the rules of the universe? That's dumb. But it's there. And when I fail I want to know it's because C + D = E and not because I am not allowed to be successful and there's nothing I can do about it because it's illogical and impossible to understand. And I'm going to push through as hard as I can to actually be successful so that thing can't say, "Look, everything you do ends in almost immediate failure no matter what you try. There is no hope, you are not allowed to have what you want, so give up. You are not in control and your life will be full of suffering and nothing else so that you may be strong. No matter what, you will fail and suffer." It's fucked up. And I wonder, like, how many have to struggle with this, even mildly.
I setup a movie site two days ago, and just running a small $40 test it turned a profit of $180 with one campaign. I felt like, maybe I was on my way. I was ready to optimize it with tests and scale up to no end! Then I got the Google Slap! All keywords from 10/10 to 5/10! It was easy to be discouraged, but I gotta just move on to something else and not let that get me down. I might work towards resolution or go through the hassle of getting another account but for now I'll leave it be. Gotta get back in the game!!!
So I want to be healthy and successful and be a person who has the capacity to love and be loved. And the plan is to do that through the pursuit of healthy relationships and a career AS A GUITAR PLAYER!
Well, the trouble is, this started when I was 19 and I'm near 23, and all those years spent unable to practice the guitar have taken a toll. "USE IT OR LOSE IT!" I'm a shitty guitar player by my own standards now. But I want to be pro. And in order to afford myself the time to develop my skills and a career plan, I want to have a very hands-off income from the internet.
So here is..
Where I'm At:
-Living in grandparent's basement as I've been in recovery and parent's lost house.
-No steady income.
-Sister stole my car -_-
-Built two websites, have ideas for more.
-Want to own websites that bring in a passive income.
-Have $1700 from previous business that went under due to personal problems and an inability to continue operating it.
I've read a lot recently... I've been working 16-18 hours a day since January 1st. What I think is best for me, is 1) Developing the ideas I have for websites and 2) Buying websites that make a passive income from organic traffic and optimizing them to build up my monthly income.
So I'm going to do a lot this year, and I'm going to cover a lot of different money-making tactics in this thread. And a lot of websites. One by one, I'm going to work at them until they are fully developed. I've always had so many ideas, I can never focus on one and finish anything. Even insofar, making money online has really been teaching me to work hard and stay focused, finishing one task before starting another.
Okay, so let's try to set up some...
Short-Term Goals:
-Promote my website which uses the CPALead reward site script until it makes $10 daily on auto-pilot. Also GET IT RANKED! I'd like to post it, but I'll hold off until it's established to avoid evil-doers lurking. I know I built a super awesome site but I just don't know how to promote it and get it ranked. Or maybe it just takes time. Made $30 the first 2 days from forum posting, then nothing.. doing Youtube and backlinks/articles/bookmarking/promoting bookmarks now. I always end up doing a bunch of work and then learning how I could have done it better. >_< This is a learning experience for me. Well, everything seems to be! =]
-Purchase one hands-off website and optimize it to $10 daily minimum.
-Once I get to $600 monthly MOVE OUT - this change of environment and added freedom and privacy is sure to boost my moral and energy! (one detail is the basement smells like sewage.. which isn't that bad honestly, but the prison had the same weird smell and man, it's like what they say about smells and memory, it just gets me down about the fines I am facing instead of looking towards the future!)
Long-Term Goal:
Make a living doing the thing I've found I can enjoy most: playing the guitar well. Ultimately, I want to use my internet marketer's mind combined with my music skill set to be able to make a comfortable living WITHOUT traveling all around the world and not being able to have close friends or a family someday. I've done that when I was younger and it's exciting, but it's also miserable and dangerous - not to mention it doesn't pay squat 99% of the time. I just want to work from home/locally.
Depending on how well I end up doing, I want to travel to Japan. And I want to buy some land out in Tennessee or somewhere and basically build something like what Michael Jackson had, I think. Or Bam Margera? I want a castle and go-kart tracks and luge hills and a giant foam pit and underground caves/hangout and passage ways and tunnels and a 1500-foot zip line and tree forts and a motorcycle and an on-site venue for bands and just anything I can think of to have FUN! I just want to build a big playground for my friends & I. Yeah, dude. PARTY ON! :thrasher:
Well I'm willing to put the hours in and am lucky enough to have an opportunity to do so so I hope this works... Will be updating daily, then after a while posts are likely to become less often, as these things normally go..
If anyone ends up reading this account and following what the heck I'm up to for some reason, well I hope it helps you somehow with something you're doing.
And I ask that you hold me accountable if you end up coming back often!All right! Time to eat, do a youtube video, get some rest and get up at 4 to start working before the other birds!
